I just want to make this clear I am a believer But sometimes it gets hard My name is Dax (Dear God)
Dear God There's a lot of questions that I have about the past (can you hear me?) And I don't want hear it from a human you made So you're the last person that I'm ever gonna ask Tell me what's real, tell me what's fake Why is everything about you a debate? (Why?) What's the point of love? Every time I've showed it I was broken and it's forced me just to only wanna hate Why's there only one you but multiple religions? (Why?) Why does every conversation end in a division? (Why?) Why does everybody want to tell us how to live But they won't listen to the same damn message that they giving? (Fuck them) Tell me how to feel, tell me what's wrong I tried to call, pick up the phone (pick up), I'm on my own Everybody says you coming back Then man why the hell's it taking so long? Why do I hurt? (Why?) Why is there pain? Why does everything good always have to change? (Why?) Why does everybody try to profit off another man's work Then destroy it just for monetary gain? (Fuck them) Tell me are you black or are you white? I don't even really care I just really want to know what's right They been saying one thing but I've been looking in the book And it seems like they've been lying for my whole damn life Tell me where I'm going (where?) Is it heaven or hell? I just hope this message greats you well I had a dream that I was walking with the devil Don't remember how it feels but I swear that I remember the smell Looked me right into my eyes and told me everything I wanted Could be mine if I gave up and decided to sell But I said I'd rather die then get mine now I'm here No fear one man with a story to tell
Dear God, where were you when I needed it? When I fucked up and repeated it? When they set the bar and I exceeded it? (Where were you?) My life is like a book that they've been judging by a cover But have never took the time to fucking read the shit (fuck 'em) I remember telling you my goals and my dreams But you didn't even answer so I guess you didn't believe in it I remember sitting with a gun to my head trying to ask You for some help but I guess you didn't believe in it! I don't want religion I need that spirituality I don't want a church I need people to call a family I don't wanna tell my sins to another sinner just Because he's got a robe and he went to some academy I don't wanna read it in a book, I wanna hear it from you Don't wanna learn it in a school because they're hiding the truth Don't wanna talk about it to another fucking human being And that's only reason that I even stepped in this booth
Dear God How do I take this darkness and turn it into light? How do believe in a concept where I speak to a man I've never seen with my own two eyes? How do I know that religion wasn't made Just to separate the world and create a whole disguise Just to keep us in these chains while the rich get richer And the poor pray to you and perpetuate a lie? How do I know this ain't some big joke? (How?) How can I have faith when there is no hope? (How?) How the hell does one man have a hundred billion dollars And we still have people on the street that are broke? There's a lot of things I wanna talk about and get off my chest I can't sleep 'cause the devil won't let me rest I used to know a fucking pastor in a church And I can still hear the screams of the kids he would fucking molest
Dear God, do you hear me? (Do you hear me?) I'm supposed to fear you but you ain't said shit So maybe it's you who actually fears me? I don't know the answer I just want to see it clearly So many lies there's a thousand different theories All I want to know is who really made religion Because I know it wasn't you but don't nobody believes me No more lies, no more death Bring back King, bring back X Please dear God let their souls rest Protect who's left and watch their steps
Dear God I don't want to have to ask you again I just hope that you know that I'm still a believer So I'll end this all by saying, "Amen" It's Dax
I can't sleep I keep thinking about this What if, with everything that's going on The world really is coming to an end? Then what?
What if it isn't a lie? (What if?) What if we make it to heaven and don't get inside? (What if?) What if we get to the gates, and see God on the other side and he Looks us in our face and says our whole lives we've wasted time? What if we can't go back? (What if?) What if we can't redo this life and get one second chance? What if our future happiness is memories of our past (God) While we burn forever haunted by the devil's laughs? (Hahahaha) Why? Why do we push them away? (Why?) And why do the ones we work to keep never actually stay? (Why?) Why do we focus on tomorrow and forget about today (Why?) And smile in everybody's face and try and act like we're okay? Why do we live this way? Why do we hate? Why do we fight? Why do act like there's time and got more than one life? Why? (Answer me)
Why? Why!? Why? Why?
I'm older and looking for truth I'm holding my faith in my hand but the Pain in this world has been shaking it loose I used to have so much to gain Now I have so much to lose They say I'm crazy for looking for answers I say they crazy for not giving proof Vision is blurred, I'm over concerned I'm looking at God to see if life with him is something I've earned The devil's been watching he's tryna Recruit he's been waiting at every turn I'm driving this life on the highway to hell but I won't burn! Fuck!
We know the difference We know what is wrong and we know what is right But Satan is strong, God And most of your people are losing the fight (We try) So what if we fail? What if we can't escape his lies? (What if?) What if we can't change, what if he still controls our minds? Where do we run? Where do we go? Who do we talk to? We look around and everyone we see is lost too (Fuck)
What if life was just some test that we all do? (What if?) What if you were busy when we called you?
What if hell's on earth? What if being born is dying, and dying's birth? Would that mean life's not God's gift but the devil's curse? And to live was to be evil 'cause it's words reversed? What if the devil entered a pastor and he led a church? What if we looked for the truth But didn't know where to search? (Where?) What if the books they said to read Have never been your words? (What if?) What if we chose to follow you but we still had that urge? Will you forgive us for our sins and let us in your world? God we at the gates (What if?) We couldn't see, hear, or touch you, but we had faith We know we messed up, we human and we make mistakes So we just begging we get in and that you'll have grace (Please) God! What if we didn't mean it?
What if the place we grew up forgot to teach it? What if we never even got the chance to go and seek it? Then what, then what? (Then what?)
Dear Family We're in scary times Nobody has the answers Just make sure you spread love And believe My name is Dax
What would your last words be? If someone put a gun to your head And said you had two minutes before they shoot Here are mine
Wish I can go and revisit the evil I Did through the course of my life (I wish) Wish I could go back in time take the Wrongs that I did and reverse them to right (Fuck) Wish I can take all the pain, the hurt, The struggle and keep 'em inside (Damn) Wish I can say that I'm sorry to People I broke here before that I die (What) Wish I can go back in time to my father, I didn't really mean it Wish I can go tell my mom that I loved her And all of this money I got I don't need it Wish I could go to the church and I talked The Lord in an effort to conquer my demons I'm beggin' and pleadin' I'm down on my knees and he's ready To shoot and I'm practically bleedin' So this is my destiny, I finna get death to the G Somebody please help me, yeah These are my last words
It's Dax! Wish I can go back in time and revisit myself just to make me believe I had these goals and these dreams in my Mind that were mine that I'll never achieve All of these gifts and these talents Were given by God I was blessed to received I was too busy worry 'bout bitches and money And all of this shit that you people would think Needed help with depression All of my passive aggressions I should've confessed them I learned my lesson I didn't get nothin' but sadness that fucked over all of my blessings Fucking perfection
I shoulda walked on my own and I traveled The common direction, just to be trending Just to be trending!
Wish I would've not held back Wish I would've not fell back Wish I would've helped my dad Wish I would've fucked that bitch when I had the chance Wish I would've sold my soul Just to get fame and all
Should have played basketball Nigga was masterful Wait!
Wish I would have never put my time into Those people who never tried to give it to me back Wish I would have never put my heart into a women that Will break it than allow it just to have a second chance Wish I would have let 'em see what I was really dealing When I still ain't tryna hide it on a motherfuckin' track I blow a milli just to prove that I'm a legend in the makin' Just to show them what it looks like when I get it right back These are my last, my last words
Dear God I'm not gonna lie, I'mma need your forgiveness I knew that no one was watching but in my last minute I now know that you were a witness So I'm repentant Now that's it's sinnin' Why? Because I need to make it to heaven Born as a sinner, die as a winner Period just like the end of a sentence
I swear the devil is watching me He tried to make me his prodigy This is my fucking apology I don't want nothin' but honesty Heaven to hell was just callin' me 30 seconds left
These are my last words And to the bitch that broke my heart I just hope that you can sleep Knowing every single man you'll meet will never be like me You can run, you can hide But you will see me in your dreams On TV
It's Dax! Wish I can go back in time to my father, I didn't really mean it Wish I can go tell my mom that I loved her And all of this money I got I don't need it Wish I could go to the church and I talked To the Lord in an effort to conquer my demons I'm beggin' and pleadin'
I'm down on my knees and he's ready To shoot and I'm practically bleedin' So this is my destiny, I finna get death to the G Somebody please help me, yeah These are my last words It's Dax!